…while I still can.
I am going to quote you some private messages that are too heavy to leave on one person:
Basically I stood up to Turn Off the Red Light and have refused to stand down, I also have a LOAD of ammunition and know how to use it. So what they expected to be a walkthrough to power and funding has become a major battle that they may just lose. I didn’t do all of that by any means, but without me it would never have happened.
So now they, and all political allies are trying to silence/discredit/ whatever me…it took so long because their bigotry is that genuine, and it has gone a long way further than Ireland because the higher they push Moran the bigger the threat I am to their whole nasty little industry. They know perfectly well I have been telling the truth all along. What they cannot wrap their heads round is the way that a conscience can make it impossible for someone like me to cave in to pressure, so they will keep pushing now. It isn’t about exposing me any more, it’s about stitching me up.
Also, as UK citizen, if Brexit goes through I may lose right to reside here, I am even more likely to lose the benefits I am dependent upon – for real, I am very severely disabled between several things, I can’t function near people at all, and it’s getting worse. I can’t handle a lot of simple, everyday things.
I survived by withdrawing and hiding up here in the middle of nowhere for nearly 30 years. I visit no-one, no-one comes here…except my Uncle…I couldn’t handle it. That way when I have to deal with people I can put on a really good show of normality and anything else the situation calls for.
The UK system has no way to accommodate someone like me at best, and I wouldn’t even want to survive to do nothing but grieve for the world I created here.
I haven’t a hope of citizenship with two ministers out to stitch me up any way they can. There can be no friends or lovers to look forward to, I couldn’t handle it, the family is a nightmare I have to exclude from my life. It’s going so far now it will be a miracle if they don’t finish me. The X factor being that there is no way they can handle the idea of someone so strong and smart being so vulnerable.
They intend to force me into compliance, what they will actually do is destroy me completely. It already came very close over Stormont having my address. That’s just the way it is and always was.
I depend on disability allowance to survive…not something I have ever been comfortable with…
…but only since 2001, before that I did 18 hour days and 7 day weeks at soft furnishings, then computers so I could overcome my “networking” difficulties with undercutting everyone…I couldn’t do it again, the last time broke my physical health and I didn’t get younger since.
BTW I did ask Ruhama for assistance, several times, either “that wasn’t the sort of thing they did – would I like an adult literacy course instead?” or they just never got back to me, even about whether I was entitled to benefits at all.
I would always have been the bravest person in this whole issue except for the fact that my own conscience scares more hoolies out of me than anything else which makes me the biggest coward.
I haven’t had a prayer since 1970. The fact that I am still alive is down to sky high IQ alone…even a day in prison would kill me, I might last a week in a hospital but only as long as I knew I had my home to go back to…I don’t want anyone else in any equivalent position screwed over in all the ways I have been so I use the surplus IQ to take on the devil and hold him to a draw from time to time.
Even getting GP was almost impossible, no one would help me so I got women I knew on internet in Australia to find me GP through Irish music groups, I was seriously ill with lungs at time…
It was one of the many things Ruhama (and, by then, it nearly choked me to even dial their number after all they put me through) “do not do”. Impending homelessness and special needs was another…not even a suggestion who I could call…
All the Uglymugsis/SwaiIreland/LauraLee crowd knew this when they were rubbing their hands with glee when Stormont hung my address out to dry…and Stormont did quite a background check through xxxxxxx and knew too…these are grad rockets the bastards throw at me and they know it.
…they knew my circumstances all along…exposing my address was committed to do serious harm, as was “Reality Bites” there is a lot of money and power at stake.
I am not on the same side as SWAI … you have no idea how sick and poisonous the games in this issue are…both sides rotten to the core.
I have been treated equally badly by BOTH sides who are hand in hand as often as not…it’s all a game of power, status and funding. EI will make fortune out of Swedish model so they have been deliberately throwing the fight all along.