I can’t take any more, I am starting to break down and I can’t control it much longer. It’s too much for one person to handle.
The only advice anyone can give is to go for help, but I dare not do that because help is the most dangerous, destructive thing I have ever experienced. I do not “feel” that, I do not “think” that, I have lived that, for years and I could not make myself face it again.
Help will cost me everything I love, everything that matters to me, and even everything I enjoy and leave me a choice between being trapped with people I cannot handle and without the solitude I need, or isolation without human contact.
I can’t take any more, I am starting to break down and I can’t control it much longer. It’s too much for one person to handle.
Don’t try to tell me I am imagining things because people want to help and would never be that cruel. That is not my experience and your denial terrifies me because denial left me in hell for so long before.
Help already trashed years of my life and destroyed my ability to trust. Help obliterated all innocence and joy from my sight and left me, for ever, a stranger in a strange land.
I can’t take any more, I am starting to break down and I can’t control it much longer. It’s too much for one person to handle.
Please don’t let this happen to Bethany
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